Resistance

NO-NO-NO-never.
I will not!-NO-never.
What am I fighting?
Pull. Push.
Scratching.
Kicking.
Dare I scream?

Scream, yell
till my voice is no more.
Go to hell, then
if you think I've the brain of a whore!

But is this true resistance
or is it
adolescent rebellion?
I could resist the urge to
Appall.
Act in haste.
Reject.
Renounce.

Speak, listen
till my heart isn't cold.
till my head isn't empty.
till I know who I am
till I don't need to be
don't need to resist
existing as...who?

Know-know-know-always.
I will know-always.
What am I seeking?
Stretch. Expand.
Growing.
Dreaming.
Dare me not to.